Yup.
Honestly I've been completely blindsided by it. I had no idea. None. He had me completely convinced that nothing had ever or would ever happen between he and this girl.
You see I had been concerned about her in the beginning. She had bothered me a lot, the fact that he was spending so much time with this girl, and that despite knowing about me she chose to tell him that she liked him.
Being a girl, I can't see how you would possibly throw yourself out there like that, unless you felt there was a chance the feelings were reciprocated. Unless you knew that there was some chance, even an off chance, that you thought he would act on your feelings. And such a thought would never have existed if unless the boy in question had given you a reason to believe such.
But despite all this, I believed him when he said nothing was going on. At one point, he and I even got into a fight over it, and he told her he wasn't going to be around anymore. He chose me over her.
But I guess at that point the damage had already been done. And there was nothing I could do to fix the gap his secret has caused between us.
He was never good at keeping secrets from me, and in doing so, in hiding this secret and lying to me for months about it all, he literally carved the Grand Canyon into the middle of our relationship.
How does one recover from that?
Well, the answer is, you can't. You don't. It rips you to pieces, and you lose your other half, slowly, only to find out why much too late.
So there's that. The end. For real this time, I'm not even mad at him. I'm just hurt, and confused.
But time heals all wounds right? Yeah. Also there are lots of other fish in the sea. And any other cliches you can think of....
Yup.
Lacy Bri
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