Lean on Me - Day 4

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding" Proverbs 3:5

This is one of my absolute favorite verses, and I think that is partially attributed to by the fact that I have such a hard time with it. 

You see, I don't really have trust issues so-to-speak, but I am definitely a micro-manager.  I like to plan things out and know where things are going.  I guess you could say that's a weakness of mine.  I trust that God is going to work everything out, but I really like knowing what the "everything" is defined as exactly.  I want to know the end result so I can plan how to get there. 

That's why I like this verse so much.  Because I know God isn't letting me in on the end result, so that the path I take to get there will not be my own but His. 

Despite this realization, I often overstep my bounds in my very conversational relationship with God. I talk while He listens, He talks, and sometimes I talk back, like a teenager who thinks they know it all but have a lifetime's less experience than the person they are talking back to.  In those situations, it has a tendency to end in a "(huffs) FINE, I will do it, but I need you to know that I am not happy about this!!"... and then it always works out.

"In all your ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight...do not be wise in your own eyes" Proverbs 3:6-7a

In order to allow my life to play out the way God has planned for me, I have to submit.  and not in the "I'm doing this because I have to" way, but moreso because I want to.  I have to obey, out of reverence.  And in this search for wisdom, I must remember that I cannot learn it, it must be given to me. 

Trusting and Leaning
Lacy Brianne :)