There are days where I just hate the world. Where every bad thing that has ever happened to me builds up and boils me down to nothing. I feel powerless against it.
To be honest, it's not whole days. Well sometimes it is, but not in this case. Today, this evening, it just hit suddenly. It is during times like these that I realize how much anger I still have pent up about things that I thought I had let go of.
And I get angry with myself for the fact that I am still holding on. There are triggers, but I feel that they should have dulled by now, yet some of them are as strong as they were the day after the event.
I realize that there is a Godly way to look at this, yet sometimes, I trip and stumble and find it hard to make the connection. I am such a happy person, well not always happy, but bubbly incandescent, joyful; and it kills me to be angry.
So I had to vent; let some of it out; I had to once again let a little more of it go.
As always,
Lacy Brianne
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